my daughter: Gavin told me I'm sexy...
me: what did you say?
my daughter: unggoy ka Gavin!..

she just turned 3... tsk tsk...

last night was funny... it was like trying to find a needle in a haystack with the wind blowing sand in your eyes... freaking funny...

it is pretty interesting how time flies eventhough one is not having fun... "another year over, and a new one just begun"...

"... I can't play Pooh to your Christopher Robin..." - Willie Conway

hi... I'm currently cleaning up my life and wrapping up all the loose ends I may have... 
and this means having to say goodbye to you... live a good life!..

I called you up to say goodbye... I told you I love you but I wanted to be free, to experience other things, to be with other people... to be in other relationships...

I told you that I still wanted to be with you in the future, that you should still love me no matter what, that I will come back (if only I could keep you in a box and put you in a shelf in my room to unwrap in the future), that I will love you again with a far greater love...

we both know I never did come back...

it dawned on me that it is not me that you really love...
you are more in love with the thought of "us"...

“… I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.
To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.
That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.
My soul is lost without her…” - P.Neruda

saan kaya tayong dalawa pupulutin?..

ayan ang tanong ko sa iyo nung dati na tayong nagusap tungkol sa atin... parehas tayong walang sagot... parehas nag-kibit-balikat lamang na sinabayan ng pagtawa... parehas na ang tanging hawak ay ang kawalan ng kasiguruhan sa isa't isa...

saan kaya tayong dalawa pupulutin?..

ayan ang tanong ko sa iyo kanina habang tayo ay naguusap tungkol sa atin... at katulad din dati, parehas tayong walang sagot... parehas pa rin nag-kibit-balikat lamang na sinabayan ng pagtawa... parehas pa rin na ang tanging hawak ay ang kawalan ng kasiguruhan sa isa't isa...

walang nagbago kungdi ngayon ay batid ko na ang nagsisimulang paghihiwalay ng mga landas na ating tinatahak - ako nakatayo pa rin kung nasaan ako nakatayo nung una tayong magkakilala, habang ikaw naman ay tuloy tuloy ang paglalakad patungo sa iyong paroroonan na ikaw rin mismo ay hindi alam kung saan...

saan kaya tayong dalawa pupulutin?..

"How many times do I have to try to tell you that I'm sorry for the things I've done?
But when I start to try to tell you, that's when you have to tell me, hey... this kind of trouble's only just begun.
I tell myself too many times - why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut?
That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words that keep on falling from your mouth.
Falling from your mouth…
Falling from your mouth…
Tell me...
Why?..
Why?..
 
 
 
 
I may be mad, I may be blind, I may be viciously unkind but I can still read what you're thinking.
And I've heard is said too many times that you'd be better off, besides, why can't you see this boat is sinking?..
Let's go down to the water's edge and we can cast away those doubts.
Some things are better left unsaid but they still turn me inside out.
Turning inside out turning inside out…
Tell me...
Why?..
Tell me...
Why?..
 
This is the book I never read…
These are the words I never said…
This is the path I'll never tread…
These are the dreams I'll dream instead…
This is the joy that's seldom spread…
These are the tears, the tears we shed…
This is the fear…
This is the dread…
These are the contents of my head…
And these are the years that we have spent…
And this is what they represent…
And this is how I feel…
Do you know how I feel?.. 'cause i don't think you know how I feel..
I don't think you know what I feel…
I don't think you know what I feel…
You don't know what I feel…"